The truth was, I felt backed into a corner. I was experiencing conflicts between my personal values and those of my workplace that I had never experienced before, and it was making me physically ill. When a doctor tried to prescribe me two separate antidepressants and a sleeping pill for what she diagnosed as situational anxiety, I decided to try and solve the cause of the problem rather than treat the symptoms. So, I turned all of my attention to creating the business I had been dreaming about on and off for my whole career, and combined my leadership experience with my coaching education to create Light Yourself Up.
The first year of being my own boss has been an incredible roller coaster of emotions, and I would not change it for the world. Despite being slightly surprised that I’m not a multi-millionaire just yet (as all of the podcasts I listened to in the lead up to my leap suggested I would be), I am delighted with the way my business is evolving.
The situational anxiety did indeed disappear when I removed myself from the offending situation. No longer dealing with sleepless nights and chronically elevated cortisol levels, my physical and mental states have improved dramatically.
Even so, there are things I miss about my old corporate gig. Things that I never read about during all my research before I made the leap, and most of which came as somewhat of a surprise. So I thought I would take the time to reflect upon and share the things I miss most about having a job, to help others who are contemplating a similar move.
It was not a hasty decision, nor an easy one. I was leaving a senior leadership position at a multinational firm to start my own career coaching and leadership development company from the ground up, in a country on the other side of the world from my native Australia. As the #news spread, I got a mixture of reactions that ran the full spectrum from, “You’re crazy!” to, “You’re such an inspiration!” (thankfully for my resolve, they were skewed towards the latter…)